BTS’s Greatest Gift

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I began to know BTS during the last quarter of 2018, I didn’t know that they were a boyband during that time. It was Namjoon’s UNICEF speech that made me fall into them, after that I began listening to their songs, know the members little by little, and then the rest was history. I first saw them live at the Seoul Music Awards 2019(January 05, 2019), got blessed to attend Love Yourself: Speak Yourself Final in Seoul on the first and last day(October 26&29, 2019).

Image Credit: BTS Official Facebook Page

There I met a few Army including Meghan, I mean JC. I call her Atty., Meghan, and Ate sometimes, but whatever it is, she knows it’s her. We were supposed to watch the MOTS ON: E in Seoul last April, everything was prepared from our concert tickets to accommodation to our itinerary. But then Covid happened, suddenly all our plans were ruined. But it made us stronger. We got the chance to talk almost every day, we gave each other room to grow, our friendship. Jin said “meet the right people”, and I did.

Laughter beyond the madness.

“Fam is my closest. She’s my Yoongi but also my Jungkook. I remember telling I will love Jungkook the way I’ll love my own brother if I have one, that’s Fam to me. If I have a younger sister, I’d love her the same. She’s annoying but then I realize “I wished for someone to be annoying” then it’s fine. She would have my back and I will have hers. She knows things I can’t say to other people. She knows the struggle I’m having. We didn’t really have a moment to sit down and talk about the deepest because, like Jin and Jungkook or Yoongi and Jimin, we’ll end up bickering and laughing. But I think that’s the wonderful part of having her, she knows my laughter so she can figure out my silence. Because sometimes words really don’t heal a person, it’s their presence.” — JC

She is the Jimin to my Yoongi. We bicker almost every day from the pettiest to the silliest things, talk about random stuff only we would understand. She’s also the Jin to my Jungkook, the one who handles my playfulness the best, the one I look up too and most especially, she’s my best friend. But little did she know she’s my main, the Namjoon to my Jungkook. I wished for a sister to be intelligent, talented and playful, then she came. A little annoying on the side, but that’s okay, we both annoy each other, we fight and then we make up and that’s one of the beauty of being her sister. She tells me when I’m wrong and encourage me to be better. She pushes me to the things I didn’t know I could do, I wouldn’t have stayed if it’s not for her.

“He really helped me to organize my thoughts, since I’m not always good at writing everything I want to express” -Jungkook to Namjoon, BTS BE comeback interview 2020.11.27

This might be what Suga pertain’s to his line “let me tell you with this song, people say the world has changed, but thankfully between you and me, nothing has changed..” and it’s so consoling and assuring to see that in this world full of chaos we might find our own BTS someday. -JC

Then we found each other, through BTS. Change is bound to happen, it’s inevitable they say. We’ve been to several quarrels, mood swings, arguments, and emotions, but nothing has changed. It made our friendship stronger. Now I can say that after all the changes we’ve been through in our lives, we’re each other’s constants.

“If this makes you feel okay, there’s nothing wrong with you. You’re just okay as you are”. — JC

I often doubt myself, but as often as that she makes me feel l that I am worthy, that I matter. She says things I didn’t know I needed to hear, just like me to her, she knows my laughter so she can figure out my silence. We’re each other’s support system, whenever she publishes an article she sends it to me first, saying that she needs someone to hype it up. I don’t know why she does that but I hope she knows how good she is as a writer. I once told her she’s my number 1, my most favorite writer, my best Army mutual, and my sister. Yes, she’s the best sister anyone could wish for, and no I’m not sharing her with anyone (we’re both territorial so she’d understand). If I were to choose a sister in my next life, I’d choose her.

This feels cringe to me but let me say this once, I love you Megs and I want to leave this year with our good memories, laughter, and happy tears, so here are few of the reasons why I’m thankful to be your friend.
Thank you for keeping up with me and my tantrums.

Thank you for accepting me when I’m not acceptable.

Thank you for believing in me when I don’t do it for myself.

Thank you for your patience when I’m stubborn.

Thank you for guiding me as I grow.

Thank you for being my healer in times of pain.

Thank you for the laughter behind my tears.

Thank you for being my constant in this changing world.

Thank you for always going the extra mile.

Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me and making it extra special.

And lastly, thank you BTS for giving me the greatest gift : a true friendship in the persona of a sister.

Happy Birthday Ate!

Love,

Meghan